Friday, June 22, 2012

Reflections: Question Two



{I don't know if I mentioned this but I am not doing these in order...obviously}


#2 Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.


1. I have always been afraid of losing someone close to me {Parents, siblings, husband, future children}. I am honestly not sure how this fear came to be though. It has never happened to me so that is not the reason. Maybe it's more just the fear of the unknown. I am not sure how I would react, how I would deal with things. I am sure I would figure it out and I would heal over time but just thinking about it scares me. I have always been afraid that if someone close to me died I would have regrets about how I treated them or what my last words were to them. This helps me to think more about how I treat those I love and I hope that it continues to do that throughout my life without me actually having to go through such a tragedy. If it were to happen I am sure I would learn and grow from it though. People who have lost loved ones and grown from it are seriously some of the most inspiring people I have ever met. 


2. I have a fear of something happening to my baby during pregnancy/birth. This is similar to the fear above but just more specific. Pregnancy just seems to be one of those things that you never know if you are in the safe zone. Things can change at any time during your pregnancy or during the birth process. I am grateful for my healthy baby girl. 


3. I have an irrational fear of being attacked when I am out walking alone or home alone. This one comes from watching way too much Law and Order SVU and other similar shows. Haha. I am always convinced that someone is following me and everyone is out to get me. Here's an example of this: When I was younger {8th gradeish} I was walking and eating some mashed potatoes on my way to meet my sister who was on her way home from school. She was running a little bit late and I was convinced that she had been kidnapped. As I was walking with my bowl of mashed potatoes I started to eat them slower because a van was passing by slowly and I was convinced that they were the kidnappers and already had my sister but we're gonna get me next. I just knew that this would be the only food we would have for who knows how long so I was going to make them last. The van slowed down across the street and then slowly made a u-turn towards me. And then they drove away. Haha. A couple of minutes later I met up with my sister. Oh, and every time my sister would take the shuttle bus from Phoenix to Flagstaff to visit me I would be constantly checking my watch and stressed out if she was late because I thought she was kidnapped. She doesn't have a cell phone and she really needs to get one so that I can stop worrying about silly things all the time! Yeah, I have always had pretty irrational weird fears about people being after me/my sister!


Well, those are my three biggest fears. Spiders, sharks, snakes, heights and all of those things are scary too but they don't quite make the top of my list. I mostly just don't really like any of those. And even though I don't super like heights I do LOVE roller coasters. I told Race that we have to go to an amusement park after this baby comes so that I can ride some roller coasters!


Well, that's enough randomness for the day. Have a Happy Friday/Weekend everyone! I am going to go get myself some Bahama Bucks!

12 comments:

  1. I totally hear you, girl! I have a fear of the unknown too. :( Not so fun. slash, have you guys picked out a name for your baby? :)

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  2. I fear all those things too!! I mean I haven't had pregnancy yet, but I can imagine. I think number one especially, because I know what that's like, but yeah I can totally relate.
    I'm with Elisabeth Gee, have you picked a name yet? curious!! ;)

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  3. I know what you mean about being afraid for your baby. I wonder a lot if I'm doing the right things for him, and I worry when I don't feel him move for a little bit. I was even scared he would get too cold when I was playing in the ocean! And I get especially worried when I hear about problems or complications with other women's pregnancies. I'm glad I see my doctor every two weeks now so I can breathe a sigh of relief every time I hear his heart beating strong, and the doctor says, "Sounds great!"

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  4. Pregnancy is terrifying. Seriously though it can make you want to stay home and never leave the house until you've delivered a live, breathing human being. This morning I reconsidered going to work because the air quality is terrible. I've never felt so vulnerable so this fear is totally rational!

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  5. I am the same way with all of those things!
    Now that your mom has grandkids and takes them out and about walking when the parents of the kids are somewhere else I think she NEEDS a cell phone. It would sure help me feel better. Maybe we all need to get her a cheap one that she only takes with her and uses in an emergency or something?

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  6. Spiders don't bug me too much and since I live in Utah, sharks aren't really a problem. I don't love mice...
    Sandy

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  7. I don't think I've said this before, but I LOVE your blog layout. It's one of my favorites. And I'm totally scared of being attacked when I walk out of the house alone. If I have to go outside alone at night I usually end up running back inside as soon as I'm done with whatever.

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  8. I definitely share the fear of being attacked too!

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  9. When I was pregnant I was always freaked out that something would happen to my daughter. She's almost 2 and she's perfect. Try not too worry too much.

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  10. I have the same fears...last night I couldn't sleep because I had so much on my mind!!! I can't wait to meet little man so I can relax a little!!

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  11. I feel like i just read my own blog. haha no joke i have all of these same fears.. and i think we need to go on a rollercoaster blogger re treat in a few years! what do you say?!

    xoxo

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